Sa 'yo, Nathan.. :p

Dear Nathan, "Bwiset ka. Pinaiyak mo 'ko." 'Yan lang dapat ang ilalagay 'kong comment sa napaka-ikli mong post for me. Two reasons. 1. To tease you since sabi mo gusto mo ng mahabang comment. 2. Because it's true. ;) Looking back, I've lost count on how many times I've tried to put a sensible comment on your friendster account. 'Yung tipong makapagbagbag damdamin. Everytime I try to do so, I would start to reminisce then would eventually stop since I don't know how to put all of them into words. I remember, back CCT days, you were so popular among our batch. It's like there is an unvoiced saying that goes: "Kung hindi mo friend si Tan, di ka popular!" or something like that. You were always surrounded with excitement (e.g. Troy, Joie, Kaye) and I just remember looking at you from a safe distance. Si Con-Con pa lagi ko nung kasama. Then, ewan, di ko alam when we started talking to each other. I don't remember what's our first conversation is like but I bet it's about anime. I was so glad then I met somebody in CVG that knows anime specially the super cheesy na Sailor Moon! Hahaha.. xD Ah, I guess it was when everybody from M21 migrated to Back Office when we started to really talk. We were the only ones left from the original team since pareho tayo ng weakness: ATTENDANCE! Hehe.. Then I remember saying to myself (swear, I really told myself this) that you look kinda sad, so I decided to become your friend. ^_^ Thus, • Becoming your friend means me influencing you to play Ragnarok Online. Yup Odin server pero si Neera ko ay isang Brewer Alchemist! Ang Full Support Priest ko ay si ....daph...! I remember spongecola001, obvious kaya na may crush ka sa kanya! Hahaha.. xD • To bear with your fetishes. Habang nasa dulong stations tayo para mag-internet, pinapapunta mo ako nun sa website ni Asia Agcaoili para maghanap ng sextoys! Then nung nabanggit ko sa 'yo na merong dildong binebenta sa Sta. Cruz eh gusto mo akong pabilihin! • To let you in to my life. I'm a Scorpion, natural na sa akin maging secretive pero when it comes to you I can easily say what I want to say. Kasi sabi mo nun manhid ka, I took that seriously. Let me share you what I've written on my prev blog, 'yung hadazawari-ekek. I found the right address pero I'm not putting any further post on that one so eto, quote na lang..

I.. wouldn't want them to read my blogposts because these are my words of reality to them. Words I would never have the courage to say, or words that I've said but I'll be dismissing as a joke later on.. But I know one person who can read this. Shamashu. He'll never know what he means to me. He's my so called "insensitive" friend but he can listen to all my angst in the world and then dismiss it afterwards. He's currently doing some blogposting too, where he vents out all his carnal desires in the written form. *evil laugh* To you, thank you for the inspiration!...

... and I never had the chance to thank you properly for listening to my rants back then. Nung "mahaba ang hair ko." Bwiset ka sa buhay nun, araw-araw mo 'kong sinasabihan na "salawahan" or "nakikiapid" or "lalakero" pero that never fails to put a smile on my face, until now, natatawa kasi ako sa expression ng mukha mo. Hehe. xD • To let you let me in to your life. I always advise you things. To save up, to buy yourself a new PC, to learn Corel or Photoshop, to learn Japanese. I always tell you to love yourself because you'll never really know how to love somebody else if you don't love yourself first. But then again you would only know how to fully love yourself by finding the person that brings out the best in you. Confusing noh? Aawayin mo nanaman ako kasi I'm talking in riddles again. I told you, hindi ako magaling sa "direct to the point". I need to learn that skill, pronto! Basta ang main point dun, mahalin mo si Nathan Cervillano! Essie-hime - xoxoxox - (may "hime" na lagi 'yan sa dulo. pauso ng accenture friend ko. it means "princess" in japanese.. ^___^) PS. Hindi mo naman talaga kamukha si Chocolate, mas pogi ka dun.. :D at maganda naman talaga ang mata, bulag ka lang talaga kaya di mo makita. :p I miss you Nathan. Pero kung yayayain mo uli akong manood ng isa pang ala "Daybreak" na movie, hindi na kita miss.. Aatakihin ako sa puso sa mga pinapapanood mo sa 'kin eh! :p